The Silent Enemy Below

Wow, it has been forever since I have posted on here, sorry. However last week I was invited to guest post on my daughter's blog and it was fun. If you want to visit my guest post on her blog here it is: , sorry if I'm a little rusty.



The Silent Enemy Below is what came to my mind when I took this photo, that little bit of technology is plain evil. It can single handedly ruin someone's self esteem to the point of crying. It can make you feel like you are hopeless and a failure.




For decades I would measure my self worth by stepping on that contraption, only to glance down in utter disgust or pride, depending on the day of the month. When the little needle goes up your spirits go down, when the needle goes down, you can take on the world in yoga pants.



Well it's no secret to any of you, who have been following my blog, that all of my internal girly parts have been eradicated, and for the most part it's been a complicated, different but wonderful decision.



I have been hormone free for a year and a half. Life without hormones is definitely not without it's difficulties and weight gain was one of the more difficult aspects of this life adventure.



At first I would step on that contraption and say"It's ok, I've been through major surgery". Then after 6 months I would say "Ugh, my weight is climbing, what can I do?". Then at a year my thoughts turned to: "This is hopeless, I can't shed a pound ".



Guess how I feel at 2.5 years post surgery?OK, yes you read it right .OK.



I dragged the contraption out from under the bed today, because I honestly have not stepped on it for over a year and that is fine with me, and I didn't step on it today either.



Self acceptance feels much better than self punishment, I am who I am.



I am more than a number on that contraption, I am more than a muffin top, I am more than tight jeans .I AM ME!



People will either accept you or find a way to make you feel worse than you do, that's just how the world is.



I always tell myself this when someone hurts my feelings-: "If it makes you feel better about your own self image, to find flaws with mine, than I am happy to help you out" .but I hope they remember that Karma is a bi%^%$.



Hope you guys enjoyed my post today. Feel free to tell me about your menopausal weight gain adventures and how you cope, I'm sure I'm not alone.

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